… which can also be applied to anyone heavily involved in spiritual work, especially if they tend to work alone.
A few weeks ago one of my friends on Livejournal mentioned the term acedia, which is a state of spiritual listlessness that leads to apathy about one’s life. It is particularly directed at spiritual life, and can be the bane of solitaries. Reading over some material on the subject, I can understand why it would happen. It’s not an easy path to be so heavily concerned with spiritual matters, and when one lacks a physical community to offer companionship and support, it is even harder to release that burden.
Originally I thought I was feeling burnout and sloth with all but my spiritual life. However, in the span of about two weeks I realized quickly this was not the case. I realized that my meditation practices had become a chore rather than a pleasure. Thus it was put on hiatus. And this past weekend I realized I was feel so burnt out from my life overall that I barely had the energy to give to doing daily Senut*, and until I feel more rested and renewed, that will not be happening. I will continue with the following: my yoga practice, both daily sun salutations and weekly class time, soul alignment, daily rune draw and weekly Tarot card pull. The divination has become a guide to how my day/week will progress; yoga makes me feel very alive and connected to my body as well as the seen and unseen worlds; soul alignment makes me feel very together internally and able to face the world. Outside of these things, though, I am giving myself something of a vacation for this month. Perhaps this is my Yule gift to myself.
I do not feel worried that this will negatively affect my relationships with my Gods and spirits. I know T/they understand, as they watch me push myself too hard as a general rule, and may even welcome the fact that I am taking some time out to rest. Hopefully it will also see some of my focus going back into developing material for this blog. I have a few posts in draft form and several to be plotted.
I have a question for my regular readers. Is there anything in particular you’d like to see discussed? I know what I hope to address here, but ideally this blog will not merely be an exercise in navel-gazing. For those of you reading through the Livejournal feed, please do not comment there as I do not receive comment notifications for those posts.
*core rite of Kemetic Orthodoxy