I’ve been doing a very poor job on keeping up with my spiritual work. While I could give excuses why this has happened, sometimes it just happens. Call it one of the drawbacks of being engaged with the mundane/secular world. We still have to pay the bills, interact with people, eat, and other such things, but doing such means you can continue with your Work and remember why you’re doing it. Or at least that is how it is for me.
In any case, I’ve been feeling like my life is settling enough again to where I can think about my esoteric work again. So it’s back to some of the basics, and for me this means meditation. I stopped for several months because I felt like it was not doing much of anything to benefit me. No, I am not someone to continue a practice simply because it’s “supposed” to be good for me. That becomes a waste of energy and a source of stress. Tonight, though, I wanted it.
I sat down and did what I have done since I was about 21, a zazen style counting of breaths with my eyes closed. All I wanted to get from this was some clearing of my head and relaxation before I went back into more academic work. While I was breathing and feeling some of the stress and psychic junk leave, I got the idea in my head that maybe my spirit body (bodies?) could use a cleaning.
What I use for this are two exercises I got from the book Your Aura & Your Chakras: the owner’s manual by Karla McLaren. The first is an aura cleaning and the second is a chakra healing. The first got rid of a lot more psychic junk than I realized was hanging around and was glad to be rid of it. Chakra healing gave me a perk up that is much needed, as well as a brief vision of a scarab and I thanked Khephra for helping me out with that. (Never had Khephra drop in before, so that was interesting.) So while I am still feeling a bit run down, which I blame on yesterday’s snowstorm, at least my body doesn’t feel like this will be a never-ending sensation.
Periodically I find myself in periods like this, where I’ve forgotten to tend to my spiritual needs, pay a price, and start back at the basics. I wish it were not so for me, but it is, and I have to remember that and work around it.
I can make it through tomorrow, that much I know. It feels good.